Keep Smiling Eventually You'll Get Shot.

When i started thinking about writing this post(i decided the title a week ago), I had two different phenomena in mind. The first phenomenon was the fact that i find annoying those cameras that take a picture when a person smiles; i feel raped everytime somebody makes me smile so that he, or she, can take a picture of me. So the first time i met one of those cameras i felt like a raping machine had been created just for me. Why would be important enough to post about it in this blog? I don't know, I just think that making people smile is a waste of humanity, what about the pain, the meditative pose, the guy with a bow and a serious look in his face. I'm ok with fooling a camera every now and then, but not always, and not because a shitty camera wants me to lie to it.

The other phenomenon is the fact that western civilization seems to be in love with criminals, and now more than never. In Colombia where i live, this is truth in a very special way, we fell in love with gangsters, with their hitmen and hitwomen, with the women who exchange their bodies for money, a good work, or protection, with their histories, aesthetic and their egos. We just want to see them everywhere everytime, in the movies, in the tv, in the books. And we seem to have a good reason, we say we just want to understand them, to know how they became what they are, so that we can stop other people to follow the crime road. But it's all BS, we are making their work seem normal, understandable, forgivable, we are trying to convince ourselves it's all ok as long as they don't come knocking to our door. We are making them a part of our society, a cool looking part of it, and they will come to our door. You just keep smiling at their adventures, eventually they'll come for you, or you mother, your father, your brother, your little boy or girl.

As i said i just wanted to write about the previous phenomena, but today i saw something really interesting, this. Bing Maps when working with flickr, videos and other applications, are an amazing way of seeing the many cities we live in. And reminds me of Big Brother, you know the all-seeing eye, the all-hearing ear, and intimate mouth that speaks in everyone`s ear.So just in case, look for cameras when in the street and keep smiling, eventually you'll get shot by someone.

Starting point

So, i'm 26, i live with my parents (not because i want to, but because i have to), i have many talents, but so far none of them have gotten me anywhere. I love reading, and read about 60 or 70 books a year; also I write, and like to paint (but i'm not good at it), in the last year i've become infatuated with platypuses, they are kind of my guiding star right now. Also i am deeply scared of deep sea, and i mean deeply scared, people talk about the giant squids, white sharks, blue whales, killer whales, penguins, coral reefs, and each one of them scares me the same. I'm also scared of outer space, so should Armageddon come, and given i have the chance to leave earth in a space vessel, i would rather stay in the ground and wait for a legendary death while trying to impale the devil with my mighty sword (I'll name her Brandie, Demons Raper). The only way i'll ever go to the outer space is if i am given the chance to do so with a alien race, they got here from home, they have some experience( I think).

Ok, thats me, kind of, and this year i'm gonna start working in many projects i got involved with; also this year i'm gonna start my personal odyssey, i have spent a lot of time getting ready, making myself smarter, knowlegdeable, stronger; i prepared for many eventualities, and i feared i would never be ready to face the real world; or should i say: ready for my journey to ithaca?. Last week i decided that i would never be ready,and this is as good a time as any to start sailing. I know where i wanna go in the end: i want to have two daugthers, an amazing life companion, write for a living, work in the publishing bussiness, get to travel a lot, and be able to keep enjoying those things i adore like reading, going to the movies, eat ice cream, cook, talking with my friends, making jokes, and spend time with my family.

I don't know if all those things i want will ever come true, i don't even know if any of them will become real; life is a complicated game, and sometimes one will get things that weren't expected, things one never knew one wanted until one got them, and things one never knew one feared until one lived them. There is no way to know where will my journey take me to; but i do know this, whatever may be stored for me on the future i'll make the better of it, and enjoy my life.